:) :) :) :) :) :)

this is going to be really short.. I GOT MY LETTERS!! it was the sweetest thing i've ever read and he put little surprises in both of them. it was amazing!! i feel on top of the world :D

need some help

ok so I am graduating high school in december :) well one thing i have to do is something called senior project. well i really want to do something that involves the marines. i was kinda thinkin about getting people to donate things for care packages for deployed marines that dont really have family. I guess just a since of home or just to get their minds away from things (even if its just for a minute or two). if any of you have any other ideas or would like to help out or just have any advice on this i would really like your input! thinkin about posting a email for everyone to read! :) please let me know!!

oh and hopefully tomorrow or wednesday i will have his letters :D cant wait.

update on the moving situation. we talked it out and everything is good. we are going to wait a little while longer until i have expeirence on livin out on my own and providing for myself.

bad

so im just going to ramble because i have so much on my mind... well me and mark are plannin on me moving to north carolina in march. well last night he started talkin about it sayin how he was worried about me and what not. well when he called me i just flat out told him i wasnt going to come if we both werent 100 percent into and i know that i am but he decides to tell me that he thinks we should wait. he says he is worried about me being up there by myself and not knowing anyone. he doesnt want me to blame him for makin my life hell. i told him i know the first few weeks are going to suck and its going to be hard but i want to do it and i feel like i can. so we are waiting and its going to be a few years and i will always wait for him but i dont know if i can go another two or so years with just phone calls and nothing else. i know this is selfish of me but it was his idea for me to move up there. not mine and now everything just feels likes its all going to come crashin down..

sorry just had to rant and ramble for a bit.

letters

lets see where to start (this one could be all over the place). well i had this idea to make a scrapbook for mark and give it to him for christmas. well i wanted him ot write me letters because i want to use the envolopes as a background for one of the pages. also i am going to get a picture frame and scatter some pictures and the envolopes be everywhere else. i just thought it was a cute idea and something fun to do.

well i asked him today if he was actually going to start sending me letters and he said he sent TWO today! i am so exited about getting them. he said there were surprises in each of them.. i cant wait to see what it is (honestly it could be a piece of grass and i would keep it just because its from him) so for the next few days (with the exception of saturday and sunday) i will be living by the mailbox. i've never really looked forward to something so much as i am lookin forward to these letters. they could say nothing but i love you and it would make me the happiest person in the world!

alright well i need to go start gettin ready.
i love my marine PFC Matus =)

just another day

i guess i'll start off by explaining myself. im not used to the whole blog thing but i figure it will be a good way to get my feelings out without actually sayin them. umm.. i am 18 and in love and pretty sure i have found the "one". he is everything to me. i really mean that. our realtionship is perfect. he is sweet, cute, knows how to treat me, and isnt afraid to tell me how is feels no matter what the situation. my parents like him and so do my friends. his parents like me and well i dont really know any of his friends. ok so your thinkin there has to be a road block somewhere, if so then your right, he is a United States Marine! :) i dont get to see him as often as i would like to but i talk to him everyday and he always makes everything better. Our relationship isnt a typical one. i dont get to go on dates with him or snuggle with him everynight but the time i do have with him i savor like there wont be another time like that.

well for right now thats all i have to say.

Proud United States Marine Girlfriend :)